Hmmmmm - kind of odd after my most recent post

Mom Kim here AGAIN!

So I have been lazy - yes, I admit it-

as well as busy taking care of a few chores so 

have not posted since my

True Confessions post 

almost a week ago.

In that post I mentioned that my 

eye/vision which had been worsening was now

somewhat stable.

FAST FORWARD TO TODAY (Thursday, 10/23).

I WAS scheduled to just go and get my contact lense replaced with a new one.

HOWEVER-

for the past couple of days I've been noticing a bit of a change ... and NOT a good change either.

I was not entirely surprised by this but 

my eye doctor did find that my vision was about HALF as good as it had been-

was about 20/60 and today was 20/150.

Now while this does sound bad- 

that is DISTANT vision which I do not really use since I don't drive anyway.

What I am most concerned with is my 

READING vision-

can I still read and do my job-

I can still blog.

 The cloudiness is what has changed for the worse along with the development of a 

small epithelial defect 

(like a skin tear on the surface of your eye).

Once again I have an appointment with my 

cornea specialist next Tuesday-

sooner if the need is there.

I am already doing everything else(medicine).

In that post (link above) I talked about 

not doing things and letting life pass me by-

part of it too is the "what ifs".

There were some things I had stopped doing because of the "what ifs"-

"What if walking the dogs had a 

bad effect on my vision?"

"What if while getting Shiloh or Diva Shasta ready to visit messed up my eye?"

Now I do continue working but "what if" all the computer use is having a bad effect on my eye?

I know I have read that it can so why do I 

continue to work altho I'm suppose to 

not use the computer to enjoy my life at home?

So now I have to ask myself-
WHY have I given up walking the Beaglebratz 
AND 
doing therapy visits-
I am STILL having problems with my eye.

Ok - that is enough for now.
Hopefully the Beaglebratz will be bak 
for the next post.

And I almost forgot since I'm not all that comfortable doing so-
but I would appreciate your prayers and POTP to
heal that defect and the cloudiness improves.