After my eye doc appointment this morning I really need to make a bit of a confession - oh what I have been telling you all about my eye is all true but this is something else I have been thinking about for a few days, it really kicked in when Georgia Little Pea left me a comment - it was a good one but just got me to thinking about something. The comment basically referred to how cheery this blog is (and I really do take that as a huge compliment because it tells me I have succeeded at something I want) in light of everything I have going on right now with my eye. Well, it's because I use it as a way to lift my own spirits - the only person I am really trying to deceive is ME and the Beaglebratz are a big help with that. I guess I am trying to convince myself that what seems s&*!!& to me, ain't really all that bad - I've been doing this for years in different ways, over 30 years, ever since the onset of my physical disabilities then with my depression - that's one reason why it is so important to me to have the Beaglebratz or at least a dog in my life.
Now, as for the eye doctor appointment today - some good and some bad. The healing part is going well - honest. However, it is where that healing eye tissue is that is causing the problem - it is why I am home and not at work. It's why I am using larger print today - I can't read what I would need to at work, can't even read what I would need on the computer screen at work. Right now, the healing tissue is right over the center of my eye. When the specialist put on that bandage contact lens this past week, it was hoped that this contact would help keep the healing tissue smooth - not happening yet and not yet known if it will. I go back for another eye doc appt. this next Tuesday.
So that's why I thought it was true confession time - my mood right now is beyond down the toilet - down down down within the deep dark depths of the sewer. (sorry for the graphic description that might lead to unwanted vivid pictures in your minds). See, my deception even leads to sick humor sometimes - it's just a way of life I guess.
Now for a bit of a break from the not-so-nice reality of my day. I got some new pictures of Shiloh'n Shasta that I wanted to share - a true example of theirr far-off distant cousin, Snoopy from Peanuts
First we have Shasta demonstrating that famous stealth mode extreme focus that Snoopy showed as he sat on the roof of his dog house, getting ready to attack->
Then it is Shiloh's turn to
demonstrate that same ability->
Now we have a duet->
Now what post that mentions Snoopy the father of all things Beagle, would be complete without showing one of his gazillion products that we have recently added to this Beagle house->
Ok, guess that is all for now - not much else going on. Out weather kinda matches my mood - cool, cloudy and rainy - even the occasional clap of thunder that reminds me of what it would sound like if I put my fist through the wall like I want to.
(Don't worry, I don't)
Think I WILL go grab a soda and sit on the couch with the Beaglebratz - maybe even take a nap.
~Kim, Shiloh'n Shasta~
PS - also best leave now because Blogger is not changing fonts and font size like I ask it to
(that is why some is and some is not)
and I am getting
VERY frustrated
9 comments:
So sorry Kim. Wish there was something I could do...
will think good thoughts and say a prayer that your eye problems clear up soon. As my 91 yr old mother (who is legally blind) likes to say... this too shall pass:)
Kathy
OK Beaglebratz! Get to work cheering your mom up! It's what we all do best, right. And Kim, our paws are crossed for your speedy recovery.
-Gizmo, Bart and Ruby
So sorry for what you are going through. Hope the eye doctor can help you. Cheer up and have some "shut eyes" to rest them.
Our Mom and Dad fully understand your mood. Our Dad was in such a funk of a mood back in 1997 when his eye problems first began. It was the arrival of Dakota that helped cheer him up. We are sure the Shiloh and Shasta are doing their best to put some smiles on your face. We are all crossing our paws for this weekend to bring some healing power to your eye. Hugs to you from all of us.
Woos ~ Phantom, Thunder, and Ciara
Hey Shiloh & Shasta!
Wow, you really need to give your mom extra doggie snuggles right now. I know she'll feel tons better with all of your pawsitive support. I'm sending good vibes to her right now. Sometimes when things seem at their worst, something better comes along. Please tell her I am thinking of her and crossing paws.
Grr and Woof,
Sarge, COP
I am sorry about your eye issues and depression. My paws are crossed that both disappear soon!
My mom has been pretty stressed lately, too. Blogging really helps. It's a great community!
Your pal, Pip
Dear Kim,
I'm sorry to have read this so late. That was DEFINITELY a compliment I left you!
Having been as healthy as the proverbial horse all my life and then ill with all manner of strange things last year, I've discovered that I can be a whingey, sorry-for-myself kind of person. That's why I find you so inspiring!
I think it's fantastic that you're using your blog as a good dose of pick-me-up medicine. I find mine very cathartic as well. Nothing like a good rant to get me feeling better again :p
I hope your eye improves soon. It still sounds quite bad. Perhaps you'll feel less depressed when that happens. I imagine it must be very tough.
Being a *ahem* mature person, I'm quite happy with your larger font, long may it stay that way! Blogger sucks.
Have a good week. I shall be thinking of you and your Snoopies xox
btw, please don't worry about who removed the comment. it was me! i used the wrong blogger ID, an old one. sorry! :)
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